As we (JL and Mazey Sunshine, Van Stein and me) continue to roll toward Nietzsche-land, I dig into my holdall and retrieve
a notebook.
“I’ve read through about two
hundred Nietzsche quotes and culled them down to a dozen for discussion
time.
"Here’s the first: A
casual stroll through the lunatic asylum shows that faith does not prove
anything. Anyone want to start?”
No one wants to start.
So, I start myself.
“I think he’s saying when you see madness up
close, it’s difficult to have faith in God.
Anyone else?”
No one.
“Next: Insanity
in individuals is something rare–but in groups, parties, nations and epochs it
is the rule. He’s saying, I think,
he doesn’t care much for people.”
“I bet he wasn’t the life of the
party,” says Van Stein.
“If Nietzsche happened to be at a
party, and I doubt he went to any by choice, he’d be sitting in a corner by
himself, looking around at everyone in disdain, shaking his head at the
mediocrity around him. Okay, next
one: No
price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.”
“The hell does that mean?” says Van
Stein. “Why would you choose that one
out of over two hundred quotes?”
“My own psychological reasons.”
“Does it have to do with personal
responsibility?” says Van Stein.
“It means you’re better off a bum
on the street than earning a large salary doing something that makes you
unhappy. It means, you’re better off
spending your days doing something that’s passionate to you rather than doing
someone else’s bidding, even at the cost of slimming down your lifestyle.”
“That’s bullshit,” says JL. “Ninety percent of the population does a job
because they have to do it.”
“I think it’s higher than ninety
percent,” I say. “Nietzsche would see
that as tragic, which is why he thought man was mediocre and held no hope for
the world. Next: Talking
much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself.”
“Oh, yeah,” says Van Stein. “Have you ever been to a party and someone
just can’t shut up? They
talk-talk-talk-talk-talk-talk, there’s no gap between their sentences, their
minds are racing a hundred miles an hour.
And by the end of the evening you think, What the hell was that? You don’t know who that person was, only what
they were spewing.”
“That sounds like you,” says JL.
“No,” I say. “It’s the ninety-ten rule.”
“The what?” says Van Stein.
“In
the intelligence business, you’ll give away ninety percent genuine information to get
the enemy to swallow ten percent disinformation.
“Next,” I say. “You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star.”
“Phoenix rising out of the ashes,”
says Van Stein. “Every dark cloud has a
silver lining.”
“Do you always speak in
clichés? Let’s define chaos,” I
say. “In your mind, you’ve got all kinds
of influences that seem difficult to reconcile.
Out of all these contradictions and paradoxes, after a mulching period,
comes the epiphany, that dancing star, the creative idea.”
“When I paint a painting,” says Van
Stein, “it starts off in the abstract.
It looks chaotic; I don’t know what’s going to happen. But eventually there’s order. The chaos is transformed into a finished
painting.”
“During a trip like this,” I say,
“all the thoughts and feelings and experiences are total chaos in my mind and
it’s like, how am I ever going to make sense of this in a way I can convey to
others in writing? But I sit down, open
a vein, and out of the chaos a dancing star eventually appears. And what I’ve discovered is, the more chaos I
begin with, the better the end result.
Okay, next one: There is always some madness in love. But there is always some reason in madness.”
“What’s the but?” says Van Stein.
“There is reason in madness, so there is reason in love,” says Mazey.
“Isn’t love a kind of temporary
insanity?” I say. “Scientists have uncovered
a chemical effect in our bodies when we fall in love. Un-returned love can make a person
crazy–drive them to stalking, murder and suicide.”
“But there is some reason in love,”
says Van Stein.
“No, there’s reason in madness.”
“But there’s also reason in love.”
“Nietzsche didn’t say that,” I
say. “He said there’s some madness in
love and some reason in madness.”
“Madmen always see a reason for
their actions,” says Mazey.
“Does true reason exist outside of
morality?” says Van Stein.
“No-no-no, yeah-yeah,” says dear
Mazey.
“What happens when you’re suddenly
in love?” I say.
“You get an erection,” says JL.
“Then you’ve lost sight of reason,”
I say.
“Does Nietzsche ever define
insanity or madness?” asks Mazey.
“He’s left it just vague enough,”
says Van Stein.
“What is it?” says Mazey. “Something that does not conform to a
norm? Is it something unknown, something
that evokes fear?”
“What, love?” says JL.
“No, insanity,” says Mazey.
“Which brings us to Nietzsche’s
next quote,” I say. “A matter that becomes clear ceases to
concern me.”
“That’s his comfort zone,” says Van
Stein.
“He’s saying,” I say, “nnce I
figure something out, I move on. The
painting is finished.”
“He was not at peace much,” says
Van Stein.
“The only time he was at peace was
when he was out walking,” I say. “Which
leads us to, All truly great thoughts are
conceived by walking. That’s how he
conceived his philosophy, by walking.”
Says Van Stein, “What about some of
the great minds that have no capacity to walk, that are confined to
wheelchairs, like Stephen Hawking? What
he should have said was, What works for
me…
What an egotist!”
“I must say,” says Mazey. “I feel very honored to be included on one of
these trips. Go on, next one.”
“It is my ambition to say in ten sentences what others would say in a
whole book.”
“Tennish anyone?” says Van
Stein.
“It should be,” I say, “my ambition this trip to define
Nietzsche in ten sentences.”
“Someone I know defined
existentialism in ten words,” says
Van Stein. “Human beings are not things; one must always choose freely.”
“Next: The
best weapon against an enemy is another enemy.
Get your enemies whacking away at each other. Next: The true man wants two things: danger and play. For that reason, he wants woman, as this is a
most dangerous plaything.”
“He’s a male chauvinist,” says
Mazey.
“No,” says Van Stein. “He’s a sexistentialist!”
“God is dead.”
“God was never alive,” says JL.
“Nietzsche seems to imply that God
once lived,” I say. “But I think what
he meant was the concept of God is
dead, or should be dead.”
“Or could be dead,” says Van Stein.
“He doesn’t know shit! Are we in
Switzerland yet?”
“What
doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.”
“You have to suffer to get where
you want to go,” says Mazey.
“Welcome adversity as a
character-builder,” I say.
“That should be in every martyr’s
handbook,” snaps Van Stein. “He’s great
at throwing out one-liners, but he doesn’t put anything into context.”
“Next is an analysis of Nietzsche
and Goethe’s thoughts on the need for an enemy:
What if you have an enemy who is
not just some mean, despicable, carping person, but a capable person who, for
some reason or other, has got it in for you, and perhaps quite
justifiably? One could perhaps say that
a real enemy who is out to harm you can do more for you than even a guru,
because a guru may put you through it and make you suffer, but you know all the
time–or at least you try to tell yourself–that it is for your own good. You know that he doesn’t really mean to hurt
you. But to be truly patient under real
provocation is much more difficult. A
guru can’t do that for you. For this
reason enemies are valuable. Nietzsche
said one should choose one’s enemies with care, that an enemy is quite a
positive and valuable element in life, and that you very rarely get on without
a few good enemies to spur you on and keep you stirred up and prevent you from
stagnating.”
Says Van Stein, “I think he means
enemas. Try to have as many enemas as
possible to keep you sharp.”
“What’s an enema?” asks Mazey.
“It’s when you’re constipated so
hard you have blockages and it’s starting to turn your body toxic. So they insert a tube up your rectum and put
in liquid to soften the stool. You’re a
doctor, you can handle this.”
“I’m a doctor of the head,” says
Mazey. “My job is to stop the bowels
from getting into a state.”
“The
problem, Mazey,” I say, “is that Van Stein has a tendency to think with his bowels. So, JL, how are we going to find a formidable
enemy?”
I shake my head. “The people hanging onto Tubby’s coattails are not stupid. They know a gravy trail when they see one. Never underestimate parasites—sucking blood is in their genes."